a little mood music.....

"Everyone's A Junkie" by Our Lady Peace


I'm not waiting for the answers
On a Sunday afternoon
I'm just too drunk to remember
Why I always slip through

The drugs and fake ambition
Have been helping me to hide
But it's the endless television
That has kept me inside

Where does it stop?
Where does it end?
Where do we go?
Why am I always complaining?

I can be good
I can be bad
I can be loved

But everything's gone black
You're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light

Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way
Black, you're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light
Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way

Big green monkey, everyone's a junkie
I'm not asking for forgiveness
For the things that I don't know
But I'm really not that different
You just made me think so

Where does it stop?
Where does it end?
Where do we go?
Why am I always complaining?

I can be good
I can be bad
I can be loved

But everything's gone black
You're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light

Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way
Black, you're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light
Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way

Big green monkey, everyone's a junkie
Big green monkey, everyone's a junkie..
Big green monkey, everyone's a junkie..
Big green monkey, everyone's a junkie
Big green monkey, everyone's a junkie
You're the big green monkey, everone's a junkie

Black You're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light
Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way
Black, you're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light
Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way
And I'll remember this someday
Black, you're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light
Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way
Black, you're looking for that sun
You're looking for that light
Lonely, you're not the only one to feel this way
Big green monkey, everyone's a junkie




This soooo describes my mood today....everyone must be a junkie cause ppl were acting really damn weird today....

Jade

Re: I'd Rather be a SANE sinner.........

First up in this ramble...a quick shout out to the only person who has commented on my blog so far Adam Hollow...so sweet you've added me to you fav's ;) This is going to have to be a quick and dirty post cause I have allot to do and no energy to do it. ok, on with the rant....well I'm not going back on any before-mentioned points in any way shape or form, but as an update to my previous rant about double standards and taking out frustrations on guys in clubs....while rather satisfying at that time I have to say I'm kinda sorta regretting it now.....I only have one word for you - Mono - yeah, it sucks.
So because of this rather unfortunate turn of events I will not be posting again for awhile as I will be trying to buy a voo doo doll on the black market so I can get revenge on that sorry bastard who made me sick....oh, yeah and catch up with my usual work (but that's kinda taking second place at the moment). Hope all my adoring fans are doing better than I am. Cheers,

Jade

How the might have fallen

Why hello my adoring fans....all of probably 2 who have actually stumbled across this crap. Why is it that no matter how hard you try to get out of whatever hole you dug yourself into, you seem only to get deeper??? I used to be so good.....not just as in pure and innocent, but reliable, proficient....if I put my mind to something, I got it done. No Problem. So what exactly happened...how did I go from the girl who does everything right to the gril scrambling to hold on? When did my life get so depressing, going from day to day just thinking about what HAD to be done just to get caught up? I am so far behind in life now it is insane....this is not where I had planned to be in highschool....everything was supposed to get better after I left that hell. I was supposed to have fun! I was supposed to BE someone! But I'm not. It's been five fucking years since grad....and I have almost nothing to show for it. And that is pathetic. That's more than pathetic....I wish I could go back, to like grade 10. I could change everything then. I was so afraid to be who I was, to be noticed for any reason...and that has stuck with me - and I have missed so much in life because of it. I thought I was going to move out of that stupid little town and make something of myself, show all those people that I was better than they thought. But look at me....I'm not better, hell I'm not even as good as I was when I left. I'm becoming the failure that I had always feared...and I don't know if there is anything I can do to stop it now.